“I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time
Of being forever incomplete.” – Alanis Morissette
My cats are very busy today – napping, grooming, attacking a toy like it is prey (because to them it is) and I watch in awe as I realize what masters they are at being a cat. As it is with ever other living creature on this planet that does not over-think and obsess over things as we humans do.
I for one have spent more than half my life working to change and grow – always striving for something nameless and faceless – never really exactly sure what I was looking for but thinking wherever or whatever it was, had to be better than here or what I was.
While I do believe it is essential and quite necessary to go into the depth of our own minds and hearts to know better who we are, perhaps in the pursuit of feeling complete, we forget that we are perfect right now – exactly as we are. I am starting to understand that and even embrace that realization.
I have finally stopped running. In the stillness I can recognize the shadows still lurking within but now know where to shine the light. There is no finish line – I will never be done – and I now know I am perfectly complete in my incompleteness. -LA